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Izy Carney

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Summer Bugs and the Rot
Jul - Nov 2024


When summer started, I was shocked to find that my seasonal depression was actually normal depression! I could no longer blame a hiding sun and a lack of vitamin D. I’ve been working on this tapestry series for the last four months. The imagery is inspired by ancient art which you can take a look at below. I like that the forms of these ancient pieces of art hold feelings and movement that I can relate to today.

The poem is a disjointed series of scenes in conversation with grief and the way (human)nature heals and hurts. Personal grief illuminates systemic failures. The more you ask “why did this happen to me?” the closer you are led to questions like “why is the world this way?“. While not a given, personal grief may serve as a primer for revoluntionary ideology.

This is dedicated to my sister, Sophie.


I. There is a rot in me
which I probably deserve.
It looks like a bruised plum -
blistered skin 
pit exposed between flesh.
II. Last year I gave up
swatting at mosquitoes
because I read in a book
‘If you resist the itch
you avoid the spread.’


III. In other words
EAT ME and
WHAT’S THE POINT?
IV. I ride past
 puckered wineberries
and pawpaws heavy
on their stems.
V. Down
the bend of the driveway
between
a curtain of branches
VI. past the cement bird fountain
which, one summer,
hid yellowjackets.
.
VII. I watch mom place my sister and I
on the damp bowl. Yellowjackets emerge
and swarm up our skirts.
VIII. The red welts on
our bellies and thighs
grew mold and sank
into skin as memory.
IX. Ever since,
my sister and I
have been preparing 
for the world 
to end again.
X. I tell the sun
I’m tired of living
this way, the sun stretches
and illuminates the under-
side of a leaf.
XI. Green veins tied together
say: sow in the spot
the rot has softened -
roots will cradle the earth.
XII. Meanwhile, the palm lines
of a local cryptid tell
my sister society’s collapse
begins with the right questions.
XIII. I fear all these answers
which will lead either to
 revolution or the caving in of flesh.